One Last Kiss

He sat very close to her, holding her hands in his own and admiring her beauty. They had held hand in hand for more than 30 years now and battled the storms of life, raised three daughters, nurtured, educated, loved and made them independent. They had seen the worst of times and the happiest of moments together. She had willingly saved every penny for their first house and to repay their car loan. She had gracefully raised three daughters and made them dauntless, fearless women ready to take up any challenges in their lives. He had worked sincerely and honestly all these years to give her a good standard of life and make her comfortable in all aspects. He ensured the best of education to his daughters, settled them well in their lives and felt a sense of satisfaction. He could now, spend the rest of his life with her and begin to enjoy everything that they had planned for. They now had a plush home that they call their own, array of servants running up and down, comfortable cars to move around and a fat bank balance to go on world tours.

He looked at her eyes, which were gleaming all the time. They were expressive as if speaking to his soul. She had long shiny hairs like that of a 20 something old and a flawless complexion that could light up a moonless night. Her soft tender hug was enough to comfort anyone ailing in the family. She was the binding force of them all. Each evening the family would get together on the dinner table and relish the lip smacking, mouth-watering food she served them all with innate care and concern. Not once, did it ever happen that anyone in the family would have gone to bed with a dis satisfied meal. She ensured everyone got their share and had a peaceful sleep. Oh she was the best referee of the WWF matches that the siblings would time and again get into. She was just and took care of everyone’s feeling and emotions. She stood for what is right and made her daughters learn the same.

As he caressed her, kissed her on the forehead as he always did but she did not move a bit. He held her hands and she did not hold it back tighter like she always did. She did not smile back at him and thank him for being a part of her life like she always did. He spoke to her of the daily mundane jobs at his workplace, of how he entered into a quarrel with his superiors but today she had nothing to say that could comfort him. He inquired her of proceedings of her day, but she spoke nothing. He begged her to answer but she won’t. He wailed and screamed, he said he needed her and he was not ready yet to take on life all by himself. After all 30 years were not enough. He wants some more years to be with her. He wanted to see the beauty of life with her. He charged her; she had promised she would never leave him. He wanted to know what his mistake was for which he was being punished. He could not believe Gods whom he had prayed diligently all his life would take away his most prized possession.

As he covered his face and wept uncontrollably, he felt a caress that he had always known and a voice that said, “No matter where I am, near or far. We are meant to be always together. Our togetherness in this life was limited until here. But do remember, we will meet again on the other side. No rush, no hurry, no pain. I don’t want to see you ailing again. I am leaving behind my daughters with you. Your purpose here is not over yet. They are for you and you for them. They have promised they will always be around to look for you when I am gone. Our love shall cross the boundaries of time and years after years we will be united again. Until then, remember of all the good old days, don’t let a tear roll. For those who have come have to go one day but the bonds they never wane.”

He held her hands and kissed again for the one last time on her forehead and sobbed and accepted the divine Plan.

P.S: It is heart wrenching to lose one of your parents. The pain is insurmountable. At various stages in life, you feel the void that losing your mother at a young age has created in your life. I lost my mother 6 years back. But it is certainly not comparable to a man's agony who has lost his companion of 30 years and taken life back in his control.

Hats off to You Papa for braving it gracefully.

With Love,

Megha S.

What Women Want

The question looms large, what women want out of men, their relationships and vice-versa. It is a tough decision to take. I read of the writing prompt for Touch Thursday on Preeti's blog and the recap of all that happened in my life in the last 3 years flashed to me. A wrong decision, lost hopes, the rebuild of my Mojo and then a beautiful beginning to a fresh new life that brought me whole lot of confidence.

Marriage is complicated and yet very beautiful. But, it is beautiful only if you settle down with someone who makes it look worthwhile and together, you find happiness that can last a lifetime. It is a widespread belief that marriage is an institution in which everyone has to make compromises and bear tantrums. To me words like compromise and tantrums are utterly negative and I would have never anyway, wanted to be an institution all my life.

Marriage is companionship, finding that one person with whom you can spend the rest of your life without any inhibitions. At the very onset, it is the connection of two hearts and rest everything falls in place. Whether, it means making compromises or what follows is sheer love, depends on an individual's perspective. It depends on the level of understanding and the maturity of the relationship. It is the selfless effort that two people put, to be in the blissful state of love ever after. It is a love that gives you a high without the hallucinogens.

Finding the perfect companion for me was never easy and my father can vouch for that. At one point of time, he lost all hopes that I would settle down in life for he believed that there existed no man whom I could fall for. But deep down, in my heart, I knew that there existed One, just One and when I meet him, the bells would start ringing just as they do in the romantic Bollywood movies.

As a woman, the primary things I wanted were:

1. Love, Love and a Lot of Love: I am a dreamer, tender and I love and care for people with all my heart. My Soul mate had to be someone who could handle a lot of love and most importantly RECIPROCATE the same. I am expressive and I am not afraid of letting the world know, how much I love someone. I wanted someone who was exactly the same.
2. Thorough Understanding:  In a relationship to battle the winds of today's materialistic and manipulative world, the most important virtue required is understanding. I wanted someone who could understand every move I make and be with me in the toughest of situations. I never would want my relationships to run the course others decide for it. It is my life and I like to take charge of myself and my actions. Likewise, I take charge of my relationships. When it comes to my life partner, I always wanted someone who was in full control of himself and who would not let the world manipulate him and his relationship with me.
3. Allow me to be myself:  No two human beings can ever be the same. There are fair chances of dissimilarities, difference in opinions and choices. Yet, true love is that which surmounts all of this. True Love allows you to be yourself. It means accepting the differences and cherishing the similarities. I wanted someone who could understand this and who had the maturity to let me pursue my dreams and desires. Marriage in no way means superimposing oneself on the other. It means complete acceptance of each other and loving the beauty of it.
4. Open Book:  The relationship between life partners is believed to be the closest of all relationships. I wanted someone who was extremely loyal and trustworthy. A person who would love me and only me. Yes, I am selfish and I am highly possessive. But I cannot and will never ever share the love of my husband with anyone else even in the remotest of possibility. So, if someone was willing to assure me that our lives would be like an open book where we had nothing to hide from each other, I would move ahead with the relationship. There should be nothing that is hidden in the relationship. I can't stand deceit, lies and treachery.

By the Grace of God, I found One and Only One Man in this world who so effortlessly fit into my frame of the perfect companion that I did not have to think twice. It was even better when he told me the same and that he found in me all that he had always wished for in a true life partner. We met and yes the bells rung out loud and clear and since then we never looked back. Each day since our first meeting, we got addicted to each other and May the Almighty let our addiction grow day on day.

And here is a glimpse of the hallucinogen and bliss of my life.

With Love,
Megha S.

 

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day

Six years and counting,
The grief of your loss never surmounting.


You never said "I'm leaving" 
You never said goodbye 
You were gone and only God knew why


Today as the world Celebrates Mother's day,
I sit here and ponder how very much,
I yearn to be loved and feel thy blissful touch.

Through all these years,
fighting against the tears,
I lived up to your values that helped me shed all fears.

You are an Angel,
I'm blessed to call my own.
You've been with me as I've grown.

Just like the others, 
I want to call you Maa and only hear your voice,
But my mind charges and I have no choice.
For you are not around and now my heart cries,
To see you just once and say GoodBye.

I've looked for you in every face I could see,
To feel the selfless love that I was bestowed by thee.

It has been tough,
The days extremely rough.
But Now, I have, finally found my way,
I am never letting it go away.

I shall keep your memories near,
And pass them to those who are dear.
Someday I know We'll meet again,
Till then, I love you Maa and I always Will.


With Love,
Megha S.

The Saga of all female Saboteurs

BOOK REVIEW: Jackdaws by Ken Follett

My Recommendation:

1. Do you have the feminist nerve in you?
2. Does your inner instinct voice the strength of women?
3. Do you believe that Women can strike back dirt?

If you've answered yes, to any of these, this novel is a must read for you. The past few novels that I have read have been genuine recommendations and reading them has quenched the thirst of an enjoyable, gripping, sensible story reading.

This is an enjoyable book with colorful characters and a lot of intimate moments defined with subtle details. The two explicitly defined characters are:

Flick Clairet - A strong woman, determined to battle for her land, yet emotional and soft who loves her husband madly only to see her trust breaking away at the whims of his pervert attitude. She falls in love with another man, yet had a lot of respect for him to be able to leave him. A small twist to the story and this would have been even more grappling. Follett could have carved Flick as an even stronger woman who had the guts to leave her husband and NOT fall into any other love affair, only fight for her land, for her cause of lead the French Resistance, win against the Nazis and be an epitome of strength and courage. The twists and turns with Flick involving herself in an extra marital affair made her lose the dignity that I carved for the protagonist of the story.

Dieter - The Nazi interrogator. He is a ruthless torturer although we also see his cultured side and his love for a Jewish mistress. He even gets terrible migraines when he has to torture people so Follett manages to create a villain who is still believable and not a caricature of the evil Nazi.

Book Review:

"Try and Try until you succeed".

"Arise, Awake and stop not till the goal is achieved."

This novel exemplifies these statements. It contains enough background information to understand the historical connection to the story. Set on a well developed plot, this fictional work by Ken Follett, serves as an interesting insight into the French Resistance during the World war II. Flick Clairet, the female protagonist of the story is a level headed, strong and determined Woman who is bent on capturing and disrupting a crucial telephone exchange. She fails miserably due to lack of information and careful planning, landing into a whole bunch of resistance members being captured, tortured and spitting fine details of the underground team. Dieter, the Nazi interrogator unravels a lot of critical information of Flick's plans.

But does that deter Flick? Doesn't she strike back? Where does she build her team from? Her strategy, planning, love affairs, weakness and strengths are precisely captured by Follett.

Flick regroups in England, with an all female team, who are all from different walks of life,  including a convicted murderer, a Cockney explosives expert thief, a lesbian aristocrat and a transvestite whose lover had been killed by the Germans. The journey the women take, the danger they get into is the crux of the story. They are all in-disciplined, unprofessionals who give Flick a tough time in organizing the army and planning the sabotage.

The novel is carefully paced over a week. There are a number of rendezvous and escapes for the women brigade that is consistently entertaining. Delving back into history, we know that the Allies would win the battle, but you wouldn't know who will survive and who gets captured until the end. What makes the story interesting is both Flick's efforts and the Wehrmacht officer who is attempting to thwart her plans and capture her. Both of them struggle with various issues, and the faceoff continues up until the very end of the book. Well thought out story, complex, and very entertaining.

My Rating: 4/5. The love affairs, the intimate moments could have been fewer and the other characters apart from Flick and Dieter better described to build a connect with them.

All in all, a good read hooks you to it as the story unfolds. Pick your copy today :) :)

With Love,

Megha S.

Seven Years in Tibet

BOOK REVIEW: Seven Years in Tibet by Heinrich Harrer

My Recommendation

This is recommended for anyone and everyone who has a burning desire to achieve their goal in life, a desire that doesn't allow you peace until you are at it. The high experienced when the wait for that one spark turning to lightning is over. It is a narrative of what every adventurer can endure to realize that dream which he nurtures in his heart. A tale of strong will power and determination, the beauty of belonging and friendships is well described in the association of Heinrich and Dalai Lama. This is a literary preservation of a theocratic culture that has been eroded. As you read along, you can draw visual interpretations of every aspect of the story owing to its simple and clear style of writing.

I lay my eye on this book, years ago, purchased and stacked on the shelf. I wouldn't have picked it up anytime soon, had it not been a genuine recommendation. Soon after reading this I realized, what I had been missing for a long time in the world of non-fiction. 

The Review

Seven Years in Tibet is an engrossing and gripping tale of Austrian Mountaineer  Heinrich Harrer’s trysts with the escape from an Indian POW camp and the realization of his boyhood dream. Unlike other boys of his age, as a child he found the achievements of the heroes far more inspiring than book reading. The goal of his life was to be one of those who conquered great peaks and took the road less traveled  An amazing narration that keeps you hooked, yearning for more.  

Life takes a turn, when he receives an invitation to realize his long cherished dream of the Himalayan Expedition. The past failure of many heroes, who lost lives, did not deter the young dream to be achieved. He had his determination focused on climbing the 25000 foot mountain. The exquisite beauty of the mountains, the immense height that he climbed took him by a spell.

It was while his return, that the World War II broke out and Britain declared war with Germany. He along with his comrades were held as POW and taken to an Indian POW camp. This was in the year 1939 when India was under the British Rule. But Hein had other dreams to pursue. He refused to be taken as a captive and lead a life that may have been pleasant, because the prisoners were not ill treated, but that certainly could not devour his appetite of measuring his strength against the mountains.

He chalks out a plan to escape the POW camp and fails at his first attempt. The second attempt was more carefully etched, moves minutely planned, resources well arranged and determination at its peak. He succeeded in his endeavor, which was only the beginning of a herculean task that he had set upon. He managed to survive against all odds; the suspicion of the natives, lack of food and shelter, ill-health, rough terrains and the fear of being caught and taken back to the POW camp hovering every moment.

After nearly two years of walking when he and his associate finally entered Lhasa, the forbidden land, they had frostbite and blisters, were starved and ill. At a time, when it was impossible to inhabit a land without a pass, they were taken into shelter and a hospitable environment. The association of the then Dalai Lama and the author is a bond that makes emotions stride. He holds it very dearly and close to his heart.

Heinrich is amused by the simplicity that the Buddhist culture had to offer. He defines in great details the simple reclusive country, its friendly inhabitants that believed in the power of prayer and superstition. Tibet was a land that shunned technology and was totally cut off from the rest of the World. 

But it grieves me to think that this beautiful “Roof of the world” has been crushed and changed beyond recognition. The death of a culture that was pious and sacred to preserve the lives on earth, for they believed that more the number of lives you preserve, better the chances of re-incarnating to a higher soul. The land was secluded to an extent that its wish to live in peace and freedom won no sympathy from any nook-corner of this world, extending no help at all. All this finally forcing the culture and its people succumb to power.

My Rating: 4.5/5

Go grab it, read it and experience a new high.

With Love,

Megha S.

One $ a half wife - Meghna Pant

Book Review : One $ a half wife by Meghna Pant

Introduction

• ISBN : 9789381626481
• Price : Rs. 191
• Pages : 296
• Publisher : Westland

Unlike most Indian immigrants, Amara malhotra is not destined to achieve the American Dream. Much to the anxiety of her parents - the spirited Biji and the doting baba - Amara leads an unremarkable life. That is, until she marries a harvard - educated millionaire, Prashant Roy. However, this fairytale isn't meant to last.

About the author

A financial journalist by day and a writer by night, Meghna Pant is the editor of a business magazine. She has formerly worked as a TV anchor for NDTV Profit and Bloomberg-UTV. her short stories have been published in over a dozen literary magazines, across four countries.

My recommendation 

Meghna Pant has chosen a delicate and sensitive subject for her debut novel. Nevertheless, she has done complete justice to the subject and the narration that follows.

The story revolves around the life of a girl next door, Amara Malhotra. Born in a conservative family, the sequence of Amara's life is decided by the whims of her mother. The two big dreams that Biji places in her life are a Green Card and Amara's marriage to an 'Amreekan' guy. 

The plot begins on the mall road of Shimla in the year 1991. Biji takes Amara across SoothSayers to know what is the Almighty's wish for the man of her life. It is then that the ringneck Parrot steps out of its cage and declares that Amara shall be "A one and a half Wife". Not knowing what this shall mean and where it will lead her to, soon they get their Green card and the Malhotra family begins their journey to be Indian immigrants carving a niche for themselves in America. In the transit from India to America, they could neither ever become fully 'Amreekan' nor could they continue to be completely Indian.

Amara faces lot of hardships in adjusting to the American ways and is always overshadowed by her cousins who are immigrants in the truest sense, for they were born and brought up the American style. Light shines upon the Malhotra family when an affluent Indian immigrant's family choses Amara to be their daughter-in-law. Amara is soon wed to Prashant, the young eligible bachelor, who neither rejects nor accepts the decision of his mother for his marriage.

Amara's dreams get shattered when after a span of 6 years, Prashant declares that he is unwilling to carry the burden of a loveless marriage. Meghna Pant has beautifully captured every emotion that lie in the heart of a girl who is coping with a broken marriage, the society's humiliations and the contempt of her parents. We still live in a society that has modernized in its dressing, yet orthodox and conventional in their thoughts. A divorcee girl/woman is a curse to the family and the society she lives in. Amara is an outcast, with even her parents not willing to understand her. The pain that she undergoes and the ray of light and hope that comes in the form of Shikha Didi, another divorcee who got re-married at the age of 37, much to the scorn of the society is well described. Shikha's successful life breaks the morose silence of Amara's life and she feels she can give herself a second chance.

In the quest to create an identity for herself, Amara does everything that the MODERN INDIAN SOCIETY considers forbidden. Later, she meets a man who understands her the way she is, lets her be and values her priorities and her decisions, someone who gives her the space she deserves yet is close to her. She couldn't have asked GOD for more. 

The story's end brings in a sense of fulfillment and contentment. There is light at the end of the Tunnel. Keep Walking and yes it's true. Settle down in life for what you think is right, not because what others have to say. people have their own priorities and ways. Hold the remote control to your happiness in your hands. In the journey of life you'll meet someone who accepts you the way you are, no changes/ no updates. That is when you should settle down. They say bells start ringing when you meet the right person. Indeed it does. 

Overall Rating

4.5/5

Recommended reading for everyone who value literature and are sensitive to the needs of life.

With Love,

Megha S.

My Life Path # 3

The MOST correct prediction about me Ever!!!  I needed to preserve it..

You possess a great talent for creativity and self expression. Many writers, poets, actors and musicians are born under the 3 Life Path. Megha, you are witty, possess a gift for gab, and savor the limelight.

Your talent for the expressive arts is so abundant that you may well have felt drawn to becoming an artist while still very young. Your artistic abilities can only be developed, however, through discipline and commitment to the true development of your talent. Commitment, concentration and hard work are the only means of bringing forth your talent.

Thanks to your gift for self expression, you can be the life of the party, and the center of attention. However, you could easily squander your talent by becoming a social butterfly.

Your creativity is the gift that can give you the comfort and luxury you desire, but not without continual focus and discipline.

You are optimistic and possess the resilience to overcome many setbacks. You are socially active, popular, and inspire people with your sunny 'happy go lucky' attitude.

Megha, you can be generous to a fault. Many people born under the 3 Life Path have difficulty handling money because they can be disorganized and not particularly serious about their responsibilities.

You are emotional and vulnerable. When hurt, you withdraw into a cloud of silence, eventually emerging from your reticence with jokes and laughter that cover up your true feelings. You can become moody and cynical when depressed. You can succumb to sarcastic remarks, which can be painful to those around you.

When used positively, your talent for self expression can be a great inspiration force in the world, uplifting others, and bringing much success and happiness to you.

Feminism and Divorce - No Way

I overheard a so-called upbeat educated, learned, independent lady saying this, "Feminism has gone to women’s head. They fall in love, get married and even sooner get divorced. Divorce has become like selling onions.Girls should better learn to compromise" and I was taken aback in shame and surprise. I strongly feel all the money put into her education has gone waste and down the drains.

I do not understand what kind of a society we live in,  where a married daughter is considered a status symbol! Is it not more important that the daughter should be happily married rather than being only married. After all her parents nurtured her with utmost care, without any bias,  imparting the best of education, and brought her up in an environment where her opinion was always valued, she never had to bow down for things that she considered inappropriate and unjust. 

Does compromise mean forgetting that a girl is as human as a boy is and that she too has a backbone to stand up tall and straight for her viewpoint and also a head to think logically? Does compromise mean succumbing to Domestic Violence by her husband only because she is a woman or may be because she chose to marry someone who was not completely acceptable to her family? 

I am not sure what this lady meant by such heavy weight words like "Feminism and Divorce selling like Onions". And I do not speak on behalf of all the woman out there who choose to put an end to their marriages and I do not say that all the marriages break because of the man being wrong. Yes, I know of few woman who were terribly wrong when it came to breaking off relationships or setting expectations. But my question is who decides, what is right or wrong? Shouldn't it be the sole discretion of two people who have to live under the same roof all their life to decide to Pull-On or Call-Off. Why does the society have to poke their nose in damn everything others do. Please let people be on their own.

Only a person who decides to Call-Off can understand the pain and the courage it takes to do so. We live in a society that is stereotyped to live by the rules. It is not easy to face the interrogations and stupid advise that practically anyone could hurl at them, only because they have chosen to get divorced. One who breaks the rules, chooses to follow a path less taken, turn to be anti social, esp. a girl, if she gets divorced, she deserved it because she is a BAD-GIRL. She doesn't have the innate qualities of compromise, sacrifice for her family(read husband, son, father, brother), is outrageously outspoken and deserves to be alone. A civil court and its ugly face for a girl who chooses to stand apart from a lot of her counterparts in a country like ours is not pleasant. So, in each and every case, it definitely is not only feminism that brings her there. Please stop categorizing people. Not all girls are the BAD BAD GIRLS and not all boys are Insane either.

I do not know if she deserves to be alone because of all that the society thinks to be right. But yes,she definitely deserves to be alone because she wants to breathe, because she doesn't want to prove anything to anyone, she is the apple of her parent's eyes and she doesn't deserved to be humiliated, beat and demoralized by her husband who is insane, suffering from lack of self esteem and wants to command all the respect and dominance on his wife.It does not matter if she is educated or not, she is a human being and at least deserves to be respected and not treated like a donkey who is supposed to keep on working day and night and not utter a word.

Marriage as they say a Holy Matrimony is by far much more than all this. It is a bond of understanding and love, where if one falls the other is ready to pick up. No one out there in this world is perfect. Each one of us are bound to make mistakes, Marriage is not about picking up the partner's faults, rather it's being the Strength in times of distress. Accept and Respect at every step. It's about Selfless Love, there is no I, Me, Myself - it's all about We-togetherness. And it is not a one-sided attempt. Both need to understand and imbibe all of it to make it work. But when it does not and people break off, it doesn't mean the the girl wasn't ready to 'COMPROMISE' or is 'FEMINIST'. It only means she deserves to breathe, be happy and spread that happiness all around.

I don't care what views people have on this post - positive or negative, I don't know if it makes sense or not but to hear something of the sorts I did today brought me to boil and I voiced what I thought is right. 

Lots of Love to such people who need it the most,
Megha S.

My Best Friend's Wedding

What a packed day it was! Moved around the city from one shop to the next, from one mall to the other, shopping like crazy. Yes, that is part of the Big Fat Indian Weddings. Wedding Ceremonies in India and esp. in North India are more of a Show-Shaa than anything else. Parents spend all their booty on feeding hundreds of hungry relatives who will do nothing but criticize the arrangements, the catering and even the Venue. There is a whole lot of "Auntyjees" whose only goal of coming to a wedding party is to check out the Outfit and accessories of other ladies and more so the Bride. And as if all this was not enough, if the wedding that they are into is by Chance a Love Marriage, God save the poor Bride and Groom. If anyone asked me, I would settle down into a marriage by signing off few papers in the presence of my closest family members.

Well anyways, Divya has finally found her Man and is getting married in a week and we went shopping for her.For once, I forgot it is Divya's wedding not mine. I bought perfumes and accessories worth half my month's salary and now I am feeling like a stupid moron for wasting my hard earned money.  

I don't know how would have I survived the toughest times of my life without her. How would have I managed to live away from home without the constant support, love, warmth and care that she had to offer. No matter how terribly wrong things were, she always stood beside me and said,"Megha, you are the best and deserve nothing but the Best. Have Patience, the best is yet to come." She has this bundle of confidence in me, that I too begin to lack sometimes and then she comes around and strengthens me, lifts me up and brings back my Mojo. That is what Friends are for, but she sure is way above all the others. My heart goes out to Wish her all the happiness on this planet. Oh Dear Lord, bring her only happiness and smiles. May she be blessed with the strongest bond of marriage and all her dreams come true, all that she aspires and all that she hopes out of this new relationship come true. Lots of Love to my sweetheart. 

I can only try to imagine how would my life change post her wedding. No matter what promises we make, I know things change, priorities get altered, focus shifts and yes it should. So I am apprehensive of what will happen to all that masti time with her that we had as SINGLES, those ACTIVA-RIDES, movies, shopping and crazy little things without which my life in Delhi would have been tasteless and stagnant.

Again, I am back to the same option left, Wait and Watch what is in store.. :) :) So when our shopping was finally over and I pacified the hunger of my stomach that could devour even a Human had I not got food then,I bid bye to meet her next on her Sangeet Ceremony. She could sense the apprehension in my eyes and  I felt like holding her and weeping like a child who longs for that favorite toy but doesn't know if it will get it or not. I wanted to pour out my heart, I am strong filled with patience. I know it will all be fine in the end. But I want all those good things to happen now.

She only said, "Enjoy this time as long as it lasts, bells are going to ring soon.Those who chose to leave were fools for they know not what a precious jewel they have lost".. Ahhh!! I don't know sweetheart if I am really that good or it is only your biased love for me that is talking.. :) :)

Whatever it is, I am super excited for the Sangeet and the Wedding for I get to adorn ethnics that I rarely wear otherwise..
Photographs and details to follow soon.....

With Love,
Megha S.

Always at the Top...

I have been there all the time,
At the TOP with nothing to whine,
Like the SIRIUS that is determined to Shine...

Nothing came for free or any ease,
I burnt the midnight Oil, battled the breeze,
Fought against all odds and made the Stars Believe..

The fetish to excel in all walks of life,
Coaxed the body and the mind to always be in strife,
One pleaded Stop, the other commanded never pause and sigh..

I always put at stake all that I had,
Only the taste of success gave me the HIGH,
It takes to keep moving, soaring and never Die..

But now this Excruciating Pain,
Like a thousand sharpnels pierced into the Brain,
For all the efforts and trials are going into Vain..

The body and the mind are at a constant rage,
They are now anyway in the same Cage,
"You do not have it in you anymore" is what they gauge..

Tired from the judgments and this drama unique
Solace from all this is all that I seek,
Where there is only acceptance and no critique..

"Show-Shaa" and manipulation is not my antique,
Spare me Thy Lord, the horror of this league,
All this drowns me into an ocean of fatigue..

Happy I will be in the world of my dreams,
Where there is Love and Compassionate gleam,
Give me a jolt and make me believe,
You have created a world with Truth Supreme...

With Love,
Megha S.

Listen if You Can...

I have been in a state of constant confusion for the past few weeks now. Nothing has worked out the way I wanted it to, so much so that whatever I am clinging to with hope seems to evade; people, relationships, possessions. 
I have been asked the same question, "What is most important to you in Life?" more than 10 times in the last one month. My answer has always been the same. People don't believe it. I think its their problem. I want to be happy and my happiness lies in the beauty of life. I don't want a lot of money since I am not a very extravagant person. With the ups and downs that life had to offer, I have learnt that if there is a force that can keep you bound and help you release all your troubles, that force is Family. Today, Family is on the top of my priority list. By the Grace of God, I have an independent life, a good job, a wholesome pay packet.Yet, at the end of the day, when I head back, I yearn to be within a home where I have few close people waiting for me to come back and celebrate Life. I am missing that so so much. How I wish, I could keep my father, sisters and everyone close to me and forget all the worries of my life. 
Why is the trust factor so low in people? Why do they have to resort to mean ways to find the truth? I can look up straight into people's eyes and tell them the truth? I am blatantly honest, irrespective of what you think about me after that.I have done no Crime. I have no reasons to lie. With all these questions and a series of failures both professionally and personally, I had begun losing hope. I was worried if God is with me or not! Can God or the Master Spirits or the Guardian Spirits, whatever you may call them hear me at all. Do they Know what I want. Am I asking too much? Is being genuine a crime in this manipulative, materialistic world?
This morning, I had a beautiful dream, a dream that sent a lot of positive vibrations my way. An Affirmation from the Gods, "They Are With Me, They are in fact listening to Me." They filled my cup of love that was fast depleting and gave me the courage to Hold On. The dream filled me with Compassion and I felt charged up. I feel like reaching out to friends, family whoever is in need and hug them, let them know. God is there with us always, always, always. The Universe is listening to every vibration that you are transmitting. Those vibrations shall travel to people whom it is meant for. We only need to be positive in our vibrations, if we really want it to. I am now ready to stretch my hands and lend help to anyone. For I know the Cup of Love is always full and can never deplete. 

With love,
Megha S.

The Source

This morning when I logged into my inbox, the first email that I lay my eyes on was sent by my Dad. It contained an attachment of an e-book “The Source – of Stillness, of Relationships, of goodness” by Anthea Church and a little Note,” I think u will enjoy reading it”. Dad has this inherent quality of knowing when and what I need. The email reached me just when I needed it the most. Thanks Papa!!!

The voracious reader that I am, I devoured the 64 page .pdf in 45 minutes straight. I have been following the daily talk, “Awakening with BrahmaKumaris - with BK Sister Shivani” on Aastha Channel at 7:10 PM IST for few years now and it has been a revelation to me.

Few invaluable experiences:

1. Live in the Present – There is no fun in watching a suspense movie aware of the climax and the end. Life is a drama with this world as your stage. Every individual that walks in and out is a character that has been sent to play their script. We can concentrate only on our own scripts. There is no element of control exercised on anyone else’ script. If we try to do so, we will fail miserably.
2. Keep Patience – Everything shall happen at its own predestined speed. Do not be restless on getting the desired outcomes. Accept that we cannot alter the script of the Masters.
3. Let Go – Forget all that has gone. Pack the baggage, tie it with a hard string and throw it into the sea. We do not need it any more. We do not need the connections that brought pain. They were not worth you and your time. So let go off the past and don’t ever build notions on what hath chanced.
4.  Be Non-Judgmental – It is ok to evaluate, but not ok to be judgmental. We may meet a lot of people in the journey of our life. It’s important to evaluate them to understand our soul connection to them. But being judgmental lowers the energy level and that can be detrimental to relationships. Cherish the similarities and respect the differences. That is the best way to enjoy life. 
5.   Be Happy – This is a personal choice and I believe in it strongly. Love people and accept them for who they are. Despite all odds, there are and will always be some subtle things that make you happy, identify them and live them to the fullest.
6.  Be your self – Never change yourself to impress people and situations. For when the truth comes out, it can be disastrous. People will accept you for what you are. Those who don’t, they don’t deserve to be a part of your story anyway. Live for yourself, to be someone whom you can stand up to without any prejudices. Be someone whom you will be able to respect and love.

I read this on a friend's wall post and felt an instant connect, "It doesn't interest me how much money u have.... I want to know that u will always be true with or without money.."

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With Love,

Megha S.